Just like what I mentioned up there,I suppose to be happy NOW
I suppose to be at the K17 mamak stall (actually is college cafe la) now,with alll my friends there,yam cha,cui sui....But I AM NOT!!!!!
I just told them I was so full now,and tired and I wanted to go back to room and have my bath first then rest...But now I am just not in happy mood,and not even having my bath....
WHY AM I FEELING SOOOOO MOODYYY?!
I know the reason,but I just cant tell it to my friends,even the one closest to me at college here,WHY AM I SO SECRETIVE?! I just cant help it,I got toooo many secret which I can reveal them to others...sorry....
The JPA finally bank in the money to me already,I suppose to be happy again,but I AM NOT AGAIN..
WHAT HAPPENED TO ME?!
I wanted soooo damn muchie to watch the Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince,but I think it will end with watching alone at my own labtop here,alone through PPS just like what I did for the Transformer,I just used to be 'fang fei ji' by my friend....nevermind la,just like what I mentioned just now,I am used to it already....
Actually everytime when I treat someone good,treat him or her as my most most best friend,BUT I just cant get the same pay back from him or her,I know that in a relationship,there is no such thing as pay back,or hoping I will get somethings equal to what I had sacrificed....
BUT in every friendship I just put tooooo much feeling in it,and in the end,I hurt myself!
Should I withdraw myself from the friendship which it is not worth for me to put toooo much time and sacrifice in it?!
dun get emo so easily larr..
ReplyDeleten dun make urself so secretive..
get someone trustworthy to tell...
mb can tell ur family oso merr...
keep it z no good...
haha,i got 1 of my best friends bout my secret just dat very complicated,so....cincai la,used to be secretive d,nvm la...
ReplyDeleteKeeping it by urself is the most terrible saddest thing to urself. U will either get depression, emotion breakdown or suicide. What i suggest is to.. find some trustable frens (trustable define as.. a person who wont tell ur secret, and even if they tell it doesnt matter). U dun nid to limit it to a person. U can tell many ppl. If u dun wan to know more bout persons involve in ur problems, jz tell some other ppl who are not related at all. For example, u could tell me bout ur fren who hurt u badly in ur uni. Firstly, i'm definitely trustable. (haha). Secondly, i didnt even know who and what is those persons involved; so i wouldnt tell anyone.. ANd thirdly, even i tell others, neither of us know who is tat and what was happening. Another case, eg: u hate me, coz i did something terribly to u. then, u find a fren in ur uni, who definitely dunno who i am and not related to utp or watsoever.. then tell him u hate me bcoz of this and that.
ReplyDeleteTelling ppl wont solve the problem, but it lessen it. Kind listener will give u recommendation, opinions or hopefully solution. Life's easy with frens. Well, make sure u dun tell every details of ur problem, like the name, the age, the background blablabla.. (this would make the trustable person no longer trustable, lol)
Bout frens... u get the concept.. there is no thing such as pay back.. Some ppl are jz like tat. they dun appreciate or sometimes not even notice what u did for them. I'm one of them.. kaka.. no point.. there's only 2 way out. 1. give up putting so much effort at that frenship. 2. cont giving and contributing without asking for return. It's easier to say than doing it. however, this is life.. u juz hav to accept this. frens are jz frens.. nothing more.. lol.. nex time i post my opinion towards frenship, u mz read it.. it will be definitely helpful.. haha.
oopss.. i didnt notice i wrote tat much.. as if i'm writing the blog d.. lol..
ReplyDeletehaha,thx la weihan,at least i know u stil at here listening to me...haha,but frankly trl u all that my prob and secrets are kinda complicated and I did tel it to a person who i really trusted in...
ReplyDeleteBout the friendship,duno y i am the second type of the options u mentioned at up there,I had undergone it for once last year and now this is second time,and I am so stupid I tot i will be more clever in handling prob in friendship,but I am not actually,I am still putting tooo much effort on it although the person is not appreciating it(i feel it myself,but i duno what he think about me),I am that kind of person,once I tooo into a friendship,I cant withdraw myself out from it d....haha...and now I still learning to sacrifice without asking for any return...
lolxx..
ReplyDeletesometimes its rather sad when ur friend din appreciate ur effort n i m used to br disappointed...
but the thing is..
juz let it go n dun keep in heart..
sometimes scold out o wat will be good...
SOmetimes i would feel that too.. Feel very stupid as the effort does not return. But i couldnt complain anything, coz i'm such a person too..
ReplyDeleteSometimes when u notice the friends around u more clearly, u might realize u are one of the 'not appreciate fren's effort ppl'. lol